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  • 7 Queer YA Reads

    7 Queer YA Reads

    When children and young people see themselves or those in their lives properly represented in fiction, it can be a transformative moment. Interesting children of any age in reading, and providing materials for them to represent their lived experiences, or to introduce them to new ones, is vital to helping them see the world through another’s eyes. With the recent attacks by U.S. legislators on books dealing with puberty, sex, anatomy, race, U.S. history, and more (attacking anything that isn’t Christian, white, and heterosexual, or in the words of one legislator, books that “might make students feel discomfort, guilt, anguish, or any other form of psychological distress because of their race or sex.”), we need to lift up diverse books for kids even more.


    Continuum by Chella Man (part of the Pocket Change Collective series)

    I LOVE this series. Every single entry is a brilliant, passionately written primer on a topic meaningful to modern teens. But Chella Man’s entry is particularly poignant. He’s a transgender, genderqueer, deaf, Jewish person of color and an artist, activist, and actor and his story of overcoming and persevering is inspiring and truly remarkable. I highly recommend the audio, because Chella narrates and it’s one of the only audiobooks ever recorded by a person with deafness.


    The Witch King by H.E. Edgmon

    My initial reaction to this book was, “THIS IS EVERYTHING I NEED!” (Yes, in all caps, I couldn’t help myself). Wyatt, a trans witch with quite a bit of power – power he lost control of one awful night – has a good life now. A best friend, a lovely adopted family, everything he could ever want. Except for resolving the little issue of his past, and the kingdom and fiancé he left behind. Now back in his former home and former life, Wyatt has to face down a ton of changes after he’s made the biggest one for himself. The book features a diverse cast of people of color, queer, trans, and nonbinary folks, and some great worldbuilding.


    Full Disclosure by Camryn Garrett

    Camryn Garrett’s debut came out of the book publishing gates on FIRE, and rightfully so. Simone is 17 years old, a person of color, bisexual, and HIV-positive. But her outlook is bright, as she knows the way to stay safe and hidden is be celibate and tell no one. But it’s not that easy when she meets Miles and falls head over heels. But no one knows her truth, and this fear of having her status known -and likely used against her – drives the main plot of the story. It’s honest, occasionally raw, and a book everyone should read.


    Camp by L.C. Rosen

    The joy in this book cannot be understated. I am a big fan of promoting queer books that showcase happiness and love and joy and hot damn, this book has it all and more. An adorable, glittering summer romance that also tackles masc/fem stereotypes, it starts with Randy, who loves Camp Outland and all the people there. It’s a queer/gay summer camp for teens like him, and there no one bats an eye at his love for nail polish and unicorns and anything sparkly. But this year is going to be different, because as much as he fell hard for Hudson, Hudson just didn’t feel the same. So Randy reinvents himself as Del – buff, sports-loving man’s man. Surely Hudson will fall now, right? And then Randy can return, little by little, in all his unicorn and nail polish glory.


    The Extraordinaries by TJ Klune

    Yes, THAT TJ Klune, of The House in the Cerulean Sea and Under the Whispering Door! TJ is known for his adult books full of whimsy and cozy feelings and he brings that trademark style, and his tender writing, to this book. The Extraordinaires is the first in a trilogy and it is a complete delight. Nick’s claim to fame isn’t as Nick, but as the most popular fanfic writer for the Extraordinaires fandom. The fandom focuses on a group of real-life superheroes and when Nick bumps into Star Shadow, his favorite Extraordinare and focus of his biggest crush, everything changes. But left on the sidelines is Seth, Nick’s best friend. And maybe the one he’s really meant for.


    Crownchasers by Rebecca Coffindaffer

    Where was this book when I was a questioning fifteen year old who loved sci-fi and living in small town Ohio? (I still love sci-fi, don’t get me wrong. But fifteen year old me would have lived for this book!). Alyssa is our pansexual main character and in line for the crown, but she’s been able to squeak out of royal duties. For the time being. But when she learns that her uncle has died and a crownchase has been decreed, Alyssa and her engineer, Hell Monkey, are caught up in the dangerous game that apparently everyone wants to participate in. It’s funny, fast-paced, and thrilling, and it hits all the marks with snarky wordplay, breathless spaceship chases, and fascinating sci-fi worldbuilding.


    Wilder Girls by Rory Power

    It’s one of the most chilling, complex YA books I’ve ever read. And it freaked me out. Power’s debut novel rips into your psyche and leaves you questioning the nature of humanity, the value of a life, and the ties that bind us all. It’s a thriller, a post-apocalyptic/survival story, and a story of friendship to which you’d go to the ends of the Earth for. And the Earth is ending, as climate change affects us all and devastates the landscape in which Hetty and Byatt live. Best friends, they’re inseparable, but when the Tox hits and the teachers at their all-girls school fall ill and then die, the girls are largely left on their own. And then Byatt goes missing and Hetty knows she’ll go to the ends of the earth to find her.


    Halli Starling (she/they) writes fantasy worlds, vampires, and romance, focusing on stories with deep emotional investment. And the occasional bloody bit of violence.

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  • Sports Ball 2021 Week 10 Review

    Sports Ball 2021 Week 10 Review

    Last Week’s Games

    Sad Fluid Squalor Seacows vs Beards ‘R Us

    The Beards’ mutton chop formation got the job done against a lackluster Seacows effort, though not without a possibly impactful injury to Aaron Jones. Jones makes up a key piece of the Mutton based offense and will have to be shaved off the starting line up for 2-3 weeks. It will probably be fine for the Beards and their two game cushion over the Seacows, but there is still hope and it is not a thing with feathers, it is Manatee-shaped.

    Scapecow of the week is the Cincinnati Defense. Congratulations you did it, three weeks in a row! But wait, the Cinci D wasn’t in the Seacows line up! True, however, their appalling performance led to rash decisions that resulted in me playing a defense that actually did worse than Cincinnati’s -2 points. 

    Fire Pandas vs the replacements

    Predictable as always, the replacements came out big this week and recorded the second highest score of all teams. The only team to score higher were the Fire Pandas. Patrick Mahomes is back and Pandas are aflame and riding high on the tire swing that is the replacements week to week performances. Adorable.

    Eurasian Collared Doves vs Purple Moose

    There was much squawking and ground stomping but not much point scoring in this match up. It seems that when sharp beaks meet sharp antlers they kind of look at each other and go ‘man that looks sharp, I don’t think I want to go near that’ and the Las Vegas defense dig themselves a -7 point hole to hide in. The most stompy hoof was Travis Kelce. The stud tight end put up his biggest numbers since week 2, and this subdued the coos. Two in particular seemed to be intimidated: Younghoe Koo and the bird-based Cardinals defense scored 3 points each and then headed south for the rest of the game.

    Bad News Bears vs Real Slim Brady

    The beast is slain! The streak is ended! The beginning of the end is begun! 

    McCaffery was back for real this week and with great effect. The kicker battle on Sunday night all but decided the outcome, and even a modest performance from Stafford was enough to serve the Bears their second loss of the season. Aaron Rodgers started for the Bears and, bad news, the difference between his projected score and his actual score made the difference…one might even say he owned the bears…

    Battling Finger Puppets vs Team Sorto

    Team Sorto had another decent score that would have beaten more than half the teams in the league, but the Finger Puppets were not among them. Carrie, you did great as always. It is all but guaranteed the basement dwelling Team Sorto and the Seacows of Liquid Squalor will squabble over who will get first pick next year. However, Team Sorto is only one game behind the ECD. Perhaps hope is a thing with feathers…a thing to be caught and surpassed a week before the playoffs.

    Standings After Week 10

    Stagnation. The plucky underdogs division remains the same. The Grizzled veterans division sees Real Slim Brady make a move towards finishing first and the replacements upset their rhythm falling to .400. 

    The Chart (of Lies)

    With only 4 weeks remaining in the regular season, the Chart of Lies might not be so full of lies after all. The Finger Puppets are still projected the first place finish with the Bears one spot behind. The Fire Pandas and replacements swap places after last week’s game, and the Beards are demoted to 9th…get back here Beards, I can still beat you vicariously!

    Preview of This Week’s Games

    Seacows vs Bad News Bears

    Good news league, the Bad News Bears are beatable! But are they beatable by literally anyone? We will find out this week when the Seacows go on the hunt for win #3.

    *like this but if the salmon was a Manatee

    Eurasian Collared Doves vs Beards ‘R Us

    The Doves will look to stop their 3 game losing streak against the Beards who also have a 3 game streak, but of wins! Will razor sharp beaks and a desire to line nests with downy beard hair be enough to see the Eurasian Collared Doves soar to victory? Seacow nation will be cheering for an ECD victory, get those Beards or possibly join me in the left behind bracket of the playoffs.

    Real Slim Brady vs Replacements

    Amy’s equilibrium has been disturbed. I don’t know what happens now; will she break out and show her true playoff form or will it be a discordant dissent into madness and losing? Krista will find out, fresh off slaying the beast. Top spot in the Grizzled Veterans league is within her grasp!

    Fire Pandas vs Finger Puppets

    Oooh this one matters. All season the top of the Plucky Underdogs’ division has been a murky glut of teams sharing the same record, but finally the leaders are playing each other and we shall have clarity! Are Pandas freaked out by finger puppets? Are finger puppets flammable? We’re about to find out.

    Purple Moose vs Team Sorto

    Having extended their lead over the ECD and team Sorto, the Purple Moose might be tempted to think they can cruise to the playoffs. The ESPN app would probably give them a 99% chance of qualifying, however that 1% chance depends on a (projection favored) Team Sorto victory this week…

  • Meet Cheryl Stone, Co-Host of the Spice Invaders Podcast!

    Meet Cheryl Stone, Co-Host of the Spice Invaders Podcast!

    Cheryl Stone (she/her) is one of the hosts of Spice Invaders and is generally into science fiction and how we navigate nostalgia.

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    Listen to the podcast here.


    Cheryl, you co-host the podcast Spice Invaders. What can you tell us about the show?

    Spice Invaders is an obsessive history of the Spice Girls told by the people who were impacted by it. We’re discovering things we didn’t know as kids, some of which is really great as well as some serious drawbacks. We just released episode 6 [at time of interview], and in it we talk about sponsorships, merch deals, and how girl power got mixed up with capitalism.

    We plan to cover Spice Girls history until 2000. Our last episode is planned for December 6th, although we will do some reflection episodes after that point.

    Who was your favorite Spice Girl as a kid and has your choice changed now that you’re an adult?

    I definitely wanted to be Geri growing up – she looked like she was having so much fun! I think as we’ve made this podcast, Mel B. stands out to me as someone who did a lot for the group and went unsung for it. I’ve grown into a bit of a Victoria, like in having a very clean front to the world and keeping the funny, wry side of myself hidden. I’ve also been really inspired by Mel C. and learning about the mental health issues she overcame. And Emma benefits from a deeper perspective…looking back, she was 18 and living with her mom when she started with the band. She was so young! Really though, it’s deepened my love for all of them as a whole as I’ve discovered some of the really big challenges they were going through.

    As a queer woman, do you feel like you bring a unique perspective to the podcast?

    Yeah, it comes up in a couple different ways. Looking at the particular historical moment, Mel B. was openly bisexual, but it was very hidden from fans. This fact is not in any official books until her biography years later. Looking back, it’s sad to realize there was a bisexual hero right in front of us, but young girls didn’t get to know that.

    I think the writing and rewriting of girl power also benefits from a queer perspective. The Spice Girls were an introduction to the feminine as inherently performative. They had five distinct feminine looks that you could literally put on as a Halloween costume. I came out later in life, but I had always indirectly chased performative feminine acts (Lady Gaga was huge for me after the Spice Girls). There were times when, looking back, I realize I was performing gender and obsessing over performing gender in ways that should have made me realize there was something deeper going on!

    I have to admit – I didn’t grow up a fan of the Spice Girls. How do you think your podcast can appeal to people like me who are coming in late?

    One of the members of our team is not a super-fan, and she offers great insight to our conversations by asking, “What does that mean?” and filling in gaps for people who might not have the ready knowledge that a long time fan has.

    Even if you’re not a fan of the Spice Girls, our podcast is a great snap shot of the mid-90s and of a group that changed the game in a lot of ways. If you think celebrity culture is fascinating, you have to study the Spice Girls. It’s fun!

    Will Spice Invaders do a livewatch of Spice World?

    If there’s enough listener interest, we will!

    [Editor’s note: Rachel really wants this to happen, so help make her dreams come true by requesting a Spice World live watch!]

    Is there anything else about you’d like us to know about your podcast?

    I think it’s important to engage with things from our childhood and teen years that we loved then, and evaluate what we’ve learned from them. We should take a moment and evaluate the values that created these things, because they usually become our own values subconsciously. I hope our podcast helps people do that.

    Do you have any recommendations of queer nerdy content?

    • This Ends at Prom is a podcast about the hosts watching teen girl movies. What makes it unique is that one of the hosts is a diehard fan and the other comes to the movies fresh and with a trans perspective, having missed a lot of the movies at the time because they were raised as a teen boy.
    • Fierce Femmes and the Notorious Liars by Kai Cheng Thom is a book about a group of young trans people who come together to defend their community as imaginary magical realism superheroes.
    • The Murderbot series is obviously so good.
    • Emily Carroll’s webcomics are spooky and amazing. I particularly love the 50-page “When I Arrived at the Castle.”
    • Sarah Gailey’s work is always great, especially Upright Women Wanted and their American Hippo duology.
    • I love Fonda Lee’s The Green Bone saga. It’s The Godfather in the Game of Thrones universe with magic and technology and gangs and the mob.

    Other than pop culture podcasts and books, what nerdy interests are you most excited about right now?

    I’m very excited for the return of Doctor Who. In particular, I love anything with Missy! I just want to watch her wreak havoc across the galaxy.


  • Black Sails Season 4 Episode 9 Review – XXXVII

    Black Sails Season 4 Episode 9 Review – XXXVII

    Silver and his men hunt for Flint on Skeleton Island.  Madi is made an offer.  Rogers struggles to hear Eleanor.  Billy casts his lot.

    (Summary provided by starz.com)


    BEST FLINT MOMENT

    I don’t WANT to be the sort of person who is aroused by Flint singlehandedly murdering three people at once, but.  Here we are.

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    The man is unstoppable.

    TODAY’S RUNNER UP

    Madi!  She isn’t given a lot of screen time, but what she has is incandescent.  She refuses to play Woodes Rogers’s game, confident that her fight for her people is more important than any personal desire she might have.  And just so he’s very clear, she refuses to play the bad guy, insisting that he alone is responsible for his wife’s death, not her, not Flint, not the war.  I LOVE HER.

    LOL MOMENT

    “He just dropped.”
    “Mmhm.”
    *foot nudge*
    “Mmhm.”
    “Should we…”
    “Mmhm.”

    LOL, poor Jack.  He was so close to living in a drama, but life keeps insisting that he’s in a comedy.

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    WELL-FORMED THOUGHTS

    I am far less invested in Flint and Silver’s relationship during this rewatch than I was the first time through, but WOW did this episode bring all the feelings back.  Their flashbacks remind us of their early season 4 friendship while simultaneously framing their central conflict of the season (“What are you looking at?”  “Nassau.  Can’t you see it?”)

    Throughout the series, we have built their partnership into something supernatural, something that, when united, can accomplish anything.  The crew members of the Walrus also believe in this supernatural relationship, assuming that Silver can intuitively divine which way Flint went in the forest.  But theirs is a relationship as human as any other, and these flashbacks reveal the cracks that will eventually split their trust in each other.  Not all of the supernaturalism is removed, however, since the breaking of their partnership really does have catastrophic effects upon their world (RIP Walrus).

    Flint can never fully trust Silver’s lack of a backstory.  Not only is he saddened that Silver would continue to lie to him, he realizes that Silver sees the world in a fundamentally different way than he does.  Silver wants to remake himself as though the past has no influence, and for Flint, the future he is trying to will into existence is entirely influenced by the past.  They are both storytellers, but only one believes in the power of story.

    Silver can never fully trust that Flint will see beyond his war.  He is the more subtly emotional man, desperate for attention and affection.  His greatest betrayal by Flint is from his captain’s “arrogance” and “indifference” when he thought they’d been equals.  He, more than Flint, values individual relationships, and while he mostly talks about his fear of losing Madi, it is clear that some part of him is hurt that Flint will always choose the war over him, too.

    No matter how close they were, no matter what they accomplished together, Flint and Silver’s partnership was always doomed to falter at some point.  Their complementary skills (visionary/practical, idealist/realist) are what made them so powerful together, but under the strain of war and lost lives, these differences prove to create mistrust between them.

    Despite how dark this is, there is hope.  Flint still believes in reconciling with Silver, seeing in Silver’s grief and desperation an echo of his own season 3 rage.  He knows it can pass, and he believes that if Madi is saved, his partnership with Silver can be restored.  In fact, he believes this so strongly that he kills Dooley, a man wholly committed to Flint, so as not to lose Silver, who is actively trying to kill him.  One side of the partnership is committed – we have one final episode to determine if this feeling will be reciprocated.

    FRAGMENTED THOUGHTS

    • FLASHBACK #1
    • These are filmed surreally, both in lighting and music.  It’s almost dreamlike, but everything in the episode encourages us to read them as true memories.

    “The men, I have to manage how they see me.  I understand that’s part of my job.  But for pride to be an issue between you and I, well, I think we’re plain past that by now, don’t you?”

    • Silver shows more vulnerability in front of Flint (by taking off his artificial leg) than anyone else, but future flashbacks will force him to take that vulnerability to uncomfortable levels.
    • Flint’s enemies talking about how unkillable he is is very erotic.

    Rogers:  Which one of them is going to prevail?
    Billy:  Silver has the men, and Flint is on his own out there and disadvantaged.  That said, Flint’s been on his own and disadvantaged countless times since I’ve known him.  And here we are.

    • Silver knowingly sends three men to their deaths solely to discover Flint’s whereabouts.  The apprentice has truly matched the master, huh?
    • FLASHBACK #2
    • Flint trusts Silver so much that he forgot he doesn’t know Silver’s past!!  And the annoyance and heartbreak that flashes across his face when he realizes that Silver is STILL lying to him!!
    • In the midst of this emotionalism, I have to admire Flint’s ability to subtly throw shade by saying, “I assumed if you ever became someone worth knowing…”  But isn’t that the whole thing?  Silver tried so desperately to be a person worth catching Flint’s attention.  Now that he has it, he doesn’t want to risk it by revealing anything Flint might dislike.
    • Flint takes down the first three men in a scene that VERY MUCH sets up the ominous Flint Ghost of Treasure Island.
    • I have to imagine that Flint was rolling his eyes and muttering, “oh, come ON” at having to pretend not to hear these bungling idiots snap tree branches as they sneak up on him.
    • Madi, a captive, utterly showing up Woodes Rogers, a governor, is BEAUTIFUL.  She is unimpressed by his White Man Pain, giving one of the best speeches of the series that is, tellingly, audibly punctuated by Eleanor’s ghost.

    “But I hear other voices, a chorus of voices.  Multitudes.  They reach back centuries.  Men and women and children who lost their lives to men like you.  Men and women and children forced to wear your chains.  I must answer to them, and this war, their war, Flint’s war, my war – it will not be bargained away to avoid a fight, to save John Silver’s life or his men’s or mine.  And you believe what you will, but it was neither Flint nor the Spanish raider who killed your wife.  That, you did.”

    • Madi is put in the exact same situation Silver was in, but her decision is the exact opposite.  She has a vision of a world that is worth fighting for, even at the cost of the person she most loves.  Silver has only followed that vision because the people he loved believed in it; once they are threatened, his true loyalty to individuals rather than a hoped-for future is revealed.  Just as this difference between Flint and Silver is exposed in this episode, we are led to question how Madi and Silver’s relationship can survive such differing values.
    • FLASHBACK #3

    “”The truth is there is no story to tell.”
    “No one’s past is that unremarkable.”
    “Not unremarkable, just without relevance.  A long time ago, I absolved myself from the obligation of finding any.  No need to account for all my life’s events in the context of a story that somehow defines me.  Events, some of which no one could divine any meaning from other than that the world is a place of unending horrors.  I’ve come to peace with the knowledge that there is no storyteller imposing any coherence, nor sense, nor grace upon those events.  Therefore, there’s no duty on my part to search for it.  You know of me all I can bear to be known.  All that is relevant to be known.  That is to say, you know my genuine friendship and loyalty.  Can that be enough and there still be trust between us?”

    • Silver believes that his past is “without relevance,” which just sounds to me like the hope of a hurting man.  Much has been made of his comment about the world being full of “unending horrors,” and I lean toward the camp that believes he perpetuated many of those horrors (remember his 105 comment to Eleanor:  “Guilt is natural.  It also goes away if you let it.”).  As much as he wants to be who he is right now without acknowledging the past, Flint and I agree that the past will exert its influence, with or without his consent.
    • Jack is SO CLOSE to having everything he’s ever wanted, a “true victory, freedom in every sense of the word.”  But because he is our only bastion of comic relief in a very emotional episode, his beautiful speech is cut short by the death of the only man who can get him his victory.
    • Ben Gunn looks at his future island prison.  Mr. DeGroot gets a really beautiful line before all hell breaks loose: the Walrus is set on fire, he calls for the men to abandon ship, and then he’s shot in the head while trying to escape.  Dangers in the dark, indeed. 

    “There are no monsters in the dark, though there are dangers.  Let’s take care to tell the difference.”

    • Nooooooo Joji!!  Flint’s facial twitches reveal that he too is saddened by the fact that he has to kill him.  I love that their fight is so close, and then Israel Hands comes in, and Flint takes him down with very little effort.  RIP Joji.  You were amazing.
    • Flint is so confident that if Silver will just trust him, they can both save Madi and continue the war.  Silver is still annoyed with the same thing that frustrated him in 201, that “right now it matters far less to you whether she lives or dies than it happens your way, on your terms.”  They’re both right, and that is why this can only get worse.

    “Even if you could kill me, even if that somehow helped you see her alive again, how are you going to explain it to her?  She believes in this as much as I do.  You know this.  If it costs the war to save her, you’ll have lost her anyway.  Even you cannot construct a story to make her forgive you that.”

    • If this were another show, Silver would have immediately replied, “Challenge accepted!”
    • But it’s a horribly depressing show, because instead Flint kills Dooley to prevent his loyal crew member from killing the partner who is trying to murder him!!  AHHHH, why can’t Silver see that Flint really values him??
    • And oh shit, DOOLEY IS THE SIXTH MAN.  We know from Treasure Island that Flint killed six men, but in the last episode Israel Hands was one of the six going ashore.  We know he has to live because he’s in the book, and I thought it was just a little hand-wavey, but NO, IT’S DOOLEY!!!  Agh, this is so sad.
    • Flint and Silver fight, and the Walrus explodes!  And DeGroot dies!! And Billy spares Ben Gunn but shoots another former brother.  THIS IS TOO MUCH.
    • FLASHBACK #4
    • Silver tries to convince Madi to trust Flint, and it’s so crazy to remember how skeptical she used to be of the pirate alliance.  Now the triumvirate has switched, and no matter how much Silver believes he’s helping Madi, we know she is very much on Flint’s side.

    “Can’t you see it?  It isn’t utility that’s behind his investment in me nor necessity, nor dependency.  I understand you fear a false motive.  But this much is clear to me now:  I have earn his respect.  And after all the tragedies that man has suffered, the loss of Thomas, the events of Charles Town, I have earned his trust.  I have his true friendship, and so he’s going to have mine.  As long as that is true, I cannot imagine what is possible.”

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    Not done reliving the episode?  Listen to Daphne and Liz’s podcast at Fathoms Deep!

  • The Councillor by E.J. Beaton

    The Councillor by E.J. Beaton

    Genre | Fantasy
    Page #s | 442
    Publishing Date | March 2021

    This Machiavellian fantasy follows a scholar’s quest to choose the next ruler of her kingdom amidst lies, conspiracy, and assassination.

    When the death of Iron Queen Sarelin Brey fractures the realm of Elira, Lysande Prior, the palace scholar and the queen’s closest friend, is appointed Councillor. Publically, Lysande must choose the next monarch from amongst the city-rulers vying for the throne. Privately, she seeks to discover which ruler murdered the queen, suspecting the use of magic.

    Resourceful, analytical, and quiet, Lysande appears to embody the motto she was raised with: everything in its place. Yet while she hides her drug addiction from her new associates, she cannot hide her growing interest in power. She becomes locked in a game of strategy with the city-rulers – especially the erudite prince Luca Fontaine, who seems to shift between ally and rival.

    Further from home, an old enemy is stirring: the magic-wielding White Queen is on the move again, and her alliance with a traitor among the royal milieu poses a danger not just to the peace of the realm, but to the survival of everything that Lysande cares about.

    In a world where the low-born keep their heads down, Lysande must learn to fight an enemy who wears many guises… even as she wages her own battle between ambition and restraint.

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    When the queen is murdered, her lowborn orphan scholar is responsible for picking the next ruler despite the dissatisfaction of the ruling class. They’re about to be a lot more upset, because this taste of power goes to Lysande’s head, and she’s not about to give it up.

    I ADORED Lysande’s morally complicated character. It is so rare to read a book with a genius drug addict protagonist with a chip on their shoulder who… is a woman. Lysande is not a bad person; once she has power, she immediately stops the executions of magical people (who are rounded up and killed out of fear rather than justice). But she consciously chooses to pick her battles and only ask for so much, even if it means some will suffer for it. Even if it doesn’t make her hero, well, that’s exactly why I like her. She’s not a hero.

    Sharing the load of leadership with Lysande is a group of city rulers. They’re from wildly distinct regions (winter, desert, jungle, Italy), which strains credulity, but I love them all the same. Lysande has to navigate friendships and political alliances while working out who murdered the queen under orders from the White Queen (aka the looming threat). She also navigates sexy times with multiple people, both men and women, with some pretty provocative explorations of power play. What is this book?! I love it.

    I found the first 50-100 pages a little slow, but once Lysande meets the other city rulers, it picks up enormously. It helps that the prose is stunning and lyrical, and eventually I just couldn’t put it down. This is very much set up for a sequel, and I hope we get one soon!

    Who Would I Recommend This Book To?

    The Councillor is perfect for anyone who wishes fantasy novels focused on the smart people rather than the buff people.

    Rating: 5 out of 5.

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  • I Want More Queer Representation in Video Games!

    I Want More Queer Representation in Video Games!

    I’ve loved video games ever since I was in elementary school, offering suggestions to my older brother about how to combine items as we worked together to beat King’s Quest V. At the time, I didn’t realize that video games were primarily aimed at telling cishet white male stories for cishet white men because honestly…everything I liked was designed that way (the joys and struggles of being a female Tolkien fan). Sometimes I was lucky enough to play a game with a female protagonist like King’s Quest VII or Final Fantasy XIII, but those were rare. Even rarer? Queer characters.

    That’s not to say that video game fandoms weren’t queer. On the contrary! I was reading Cloud/Sephiroth fanfic at a very young age, and don’t get me started on how obsessed Seifer is with Squall (oh wait, I did that in my recent playthrough). But these queer relationships weren’t affirmed in canon – they were something that you had to find in private, in the secret, shameful parts of the Internet.

    Today, queer people can choose to see themselves represented in games like The Sims (which let you move in with someone of the same sex and adopt a child together in 2000), Dragon Age, and Assassin’s Creed. In fact, if you are playing Cassandra from Assassin’s Creed: Odyssey as a straight woman, I must ask you to explain yourself. I love romancing literally everyone in the Dragon Age series and Inquisition casually includes a trans NPC. If you’re anything like me, your queer corner of the Internet might lead you to believe that we are in a rainbow era of overwhelming queerness in our video games, because everyone you see chooses to make these games hella queer. Unfortunately, this is not mainstream, since many of these games are only as queer as you make them.

    Dragon Age attempts to solve this problem by forcing some characters to be unambiguously queer. Krem is always going to tell you how he joined the Chargers after the prejudiced world of Tevinter refused to let him live as a man. Dorian will never romance you if you’re a woman, and his homosexuality is a key piece of his character arc. I know some people find this frustrating, but I admire it. When you can romance everyone, it allows for people to play through a game with nary a queer character in sight.

    What I find myself really craving, though, are gloriously queer games that are made to blast rainbows in your face. We had Dream Daddies, of course, a dating sim that presents you, a dad with a teenager, with a neighborhood full of dads to date. And I’ve got my eye on Boyfriend Dungeon, a phenomenally ridiculous dating sim about dating your weapons, who are also queer people. Listen, I don’t really understand it yet, but I’m into it. I would also be remiss if I didn’t mention Hades, though I have to say that after 20+ hours of playtime, it is far less queer than I was promised (I want to ship Zagreus / Thanatos, but he rarely shows up!).

    It is undeniably a better time to play video games as a queer person than ever before, but I want more! The queerest games out there are dating sims. That’s fun, but where are queer adventurers? Where is my queer Final Fantasy relationship? (FF7: Remake offered some amazingly flirty Tifa/Aeris interactions, but they belong in the world of queerbaiting rather than actual queer content.) I would love to see a classic RPG with queer love as an integral part of the story.

    Perhaps something like that already exists. I’d love to have missed something spectacular! Is there a super queer, super amazing video game that can eat up my free time?

    If you know of one, please leave a comment and let me know!

  • Sports Ball 2021 Week 9 Review

    Sports Ball 2021 Week 9 Review

    RETRACTION

    It has been brought to my attention that a part of last week’s blog entry was factually incorrect. This terrible oversight has shaken me to my core. How could I be so careless, how many lives were affected by my inaccurate reporting, what damage has been done to my integrity and that of this fantasy football community? 

    I wish to set the record straight. I implied that the Beards won their week 7 match up against Team Sorto but they did not. They lost. They lost by 15 points, points that were not on their bench. They never could have won that game and to say that it could have been otherwise would be false. 

    My deepest apologies, Sports Ballers, sometimes it is hard to see through all the liquid squalor, but that is no excuse! I shall wipe the green crap off the inside of my tank and report only the truth and my wildly fluctuating opinion on our collective attempts to play fantasy football.

    Last Week’s Games

    Purple Moose vs Seacows

    The Moose rallied a valiant 123 points in this game with good performances from promising players. They have shaken off the slight stumble and continue to hound the Fire Pandas and Finger Puppets in the underdog division.

    On the other side of the ball, it was all flipper injuries, disappointed booped snoots, and the power of Loving to throw short passes and interceptions. 

    Seeing as there was not a decisive Scapecow of the week last week, apparently I decided to let them have another week to sort it out (I have definitely not become so despondent on what is now a month without a win that I forgot to swap out my defence) and the result is:

    The Cincinatti Defence! Congratulations, I would have done better if I had kept the roster spot empty. It shouldn’t be possible to win two scapecow awards in a row, but you did it! Can you make it 3? Will I let you? …let’s find out next week.

    Bad News Bears vs the replacements

    There are three guarantees in life: Death, taxes and that the replacements will follow a monster week with a nap. 

    The Bad News Bears add another win and several more pounds to their winter bulk, and are looking sleepy.

    Team Sorto vs Fire Pandas

    Polite messages were exchanged in the chat, broken hearts and exuberant cheers were kept behind closed doors, feelings were stuffed deep deep down…I’m only kidding, when a psychologist and a counsellor battle for supremacy only well adjusted humans emerge.

    Real Slim Brady vs Beards

    CMC returned but appeared to be easing back in rather than going full hulk smash, at least there was some consolation for Krista that the Patriots won that game.

    Those Mutton Chops tho… a coordinated 15.2 each for the RBs and an average 16.85 for the WR, Damn. Volume and luscious texture provided by a sweet 19 points from the New England defence, my my Beards. 

    Battling Finger Puppets vs Eurasian collared Doves

    Both top scores in this game, Doves’ 142 would have beaten anyone else but Carrie who had 187 – more than the combined score in the Bad News Bears/replacements game.

    ECD found a suitable replacement, and Carson Wentz played heckagood.

    The Battling Finger Puppets’ stack came out with 50 points and inspired the rest of the team. James Connor took full advantage of the opportunity an early injury to teammate Edmonds presented and racked up 40 points.

    Standings After Week 9

    There was some movement on the table this week but don’t get excited, it’s just the Seacows sinking below the Beards.

    The Chart (of Lies)

    The chart has a new favorite! Battling Finger Puppets are projected top spot, displacing the Bad News Bears. 

    Preview of This Week’s Games

    Sad Fluid Squalor Seacows vs Beards ‘R Us

    If the Seacows are to have any hope of turning their season around and making the play offs, this game is a must win against division rival Beards. The same could be said for the Beards. Riding on the back of a 2 game winning streak, they will be looking to mow down the Manatees without getting their facial hair damp.

    Fire Pandas vs the replacements

    The replacement pendulum is expected to swing up, and the Pandas, playful creatures that they are, love tire swings and will attempt to hop on. The result: an adorable Panda on a tire swing or an adorable panda falling off a tire swing? 

    Eurasian Collared Doves vs Purple Moose

    An honorable animal battle, where deadly sharp beaks and air superiority shall battle deadly sharp antlers and a sturdy four feet on the ground. The prize: a win and legitimacy to the claim to be the greatest animal team in the league.

    Bad News Bears vs Real Slim Brady

    Will this be the week someone stops the Bears? Perhaps if Krista named her team the ‘Actually Vaccinated Rogers.’ He loves owning the Bears… 

    Battling Finger Puppets vs Team Sorto

    A depleted finger puppet back field might give team Sorto a chance for an upset in this game. The projection is against them, but another good performance from fellow underdog New York Jets could make the difference in this one.

  • Meet the Author: Lev Rosen

    Meet the Author: Lev Rosen

    Lev Rosen writes books for people of all ages, most recently Camp, which was a best book of the year from Forbes, Elle, and The Today Show, amongst others and is a Lambda finalist and ALA Rainbow List Top Ten. His next book, Lavender House, will be released fall of 2022. He lives in NYC with his husband and a very small cat.  You can find him online at LevACRosen.com and @LevACRosen

    Your novel Camp takes place at a utopian summer camp for queer teens, Camp Outland.  Was it inspired by any real life camps or experiences?

    There are in fact several queer camps around the country, but Camp Outland wasn’t inspired by any of them in particular. Physically, though, it’s based on the Jewish summer camp I went to as a kid and worked as a teen for several years – though that was a very different experience. But I used that camp as a good blueprint for where to put activities, cabins, and secret spots.

    One of the central themes of the book is learning how to balance your own personality with allowing growth based on the preferences of others.  Why do you think this is an important idea for readers, especially teen readers, to consider?

    I’m not sure I’d phrase it that way – “allowing growth based on the preferences of others” – I think that implies we can grow trying to be someone else for someone else, and while that might be what happens at first, I think Randy’s growth comes from himself in the end, from discovering that this persona he’s created actually has a lot of him in it already, parts of himself he didn’t know about or get to try on, not that he’s growing into someone else for Hudson. What’s important about trying on new identities, though – whether inspired by an ill-conceived romantic plot or just a desire to change – is that a lot of queer kids don’t get that chance. The moment you come out, you’re often labeled the queer kid, and no matter what you do, your actions, attitude and choices are thought of as being an extension of that. The only way to get out of that is to not be thought of as “just” the queer kid – one way to do that is by surrounding yourself with other queer people, who won’t view your sexuality as the central part of your personality. But the only other way to fix that is by reminding straight people that queer kids are entitled to just as much identity experimentation as straight ones, and to let them go through that without making it about their queerness. 

    In Camp, just about every character is a queer person.  This is quite a change from the days in which we were lucky to get one gay side character in a story.  Why do you think it’s important to write books that are entirely centered on queer teens and adults?

    Well, I think there are actually a lot of queer YA books coming out these days that have more than just a few queer characters, but the real reason I wrote a mostly queer cast is because I just don’t care about straight people. Their opinions on my sexuality, on queer teens, on what books are appropriate for queer teens – I do not care. We’ve had centuries of books with entirely straight casts. Time for some with queer casts. I mean, it’s only fair we have just as many books with all queer characters as we do book with all straight characters. And if people disagree with that, it’s good to ask why. 

    Camp Outland is a safe space for queer people, but it’s removed from daily life by nature of being a summer camp.  What are some practical ways we can create safe spaces for ourselves and for other queer people in our daily lives?

    I mean if you’re straight, the best thing you can do to ensure a safe space for queer people is to stay out of it. That’s my biggest piece of advice. The other thing I think we as queer people should do is find each other and remember that we’re a family. We might hate other queer people, or love them, or find them annoying, but in the end, these folks are part of your community, and you have to welcome them in at least somewhat. That’s not to say you should remove yourself from the straight world entirely (I mean, if you can, more power to you). That’s nigh impossible, sadly. But take space for yourself where you don’t have to perform for straight people. Where there’s no concern about being too gay about being not the stereotype people expect from you. And straight people, like I said, stay out. 

    You have a new book coming out in fall 2022.  What can you tell us about Lavender House?

    Lavender House is an adult book, but it also features an almost entirely queer cast – in the 1950s. It’s a detective story, very Knives Out, in which a San Francisco police detective, having been caught on a raid on a queer club, is fired from the force. He thinks his life is over, but is approached by a woman who asks him to investigate the murder of his wife. She takes him to a manor outside the city where there’s a wealthy family united around a lavender marriage (a marriage between a gay man and a lesbian which is just for appearances). There’s been a murder, there’s plenty of queer suspects, and plenty of fun. It’s a bit Chandler, a bit Christie, and very gay. The only thing I will say, and I hope this is obvious anyway, is it’s not a big happy lovefest like Camp. This is about a queer guy in the 50s, it’s not a pretty story, and the family is bickering and infighting. But I wanted to show the ways queer people existed before Stonewall and had their communities and families. The best part is it’s the first in a series; the second is scheduled for fall 2023, and will follow the same detective investigating more queer mysteries. When your identity is a crime, you can’t go to the police when a crime is committed. Queer fiction and crime fiction go hand in hand, and I’m so excited to get these books out there. 

    Are there any other queer books (or other media) that you would like to recommend to our readers?

    SO MANY. One book that’s coming out soon and is getting a lot of Camp comparisons is Robby Couch’s Blaine For the Win, which is like a gay YA legally blonde where a queer kid runs for class president to prove to his ex he’s not a ditz, essentially. I’m also so excited for Dahlia Adler’s Home Field Advantage – a cheerleader and the first female football player at high school fall for each other. I’ve read this one and it’s not just an amazing sweet romance, it’s also a real exploration of the ways queer people find each other in homophobic environments and support each other. I’m also excited for Adib Khorram’s Kiss and Tell, about a queer boybander, and how his role as a queer celebrity involves navigating who he really is vs. the fetishized and sanitized version of queerness his label wants him to be. So I’d recommend pre-ordering all of those. There are many many amazing looking queer books forthcoming, though. Those are just off the top of my head. 

    For more information on Lev Rosen and his work, please visit his website.


  • Black Sails Season 4 Episode 8 Review – XXXVI

    Black Sails Season 4 Episode 8 Review – XXXVI

    A rescue plan threatens to divide Flint and Silver.  Max learns the true price of freedom.  Rackham seeks his prey.  The Walrus enters uncharted territory.

    (Summary provided by starz.com)


    BEST FLINT MOMENT

    Oh MAN is it rewarding to get back to basics – Flint telling a story and earning himself an ally.  It’s fitting that here at the end of the show, Flint gets explicit about his storytelling habit.  By spinning a story, fictional or true, the storyteller can control a situation while being above the influence of the story itself.  This is Flint at his best, controlling the narrative and getting shit done!

    TODAY’S RUNNER UP

    Max!  She gets everything she has wanted – a partnership with a powerful woman that guarantees her control of Nassau.  But she rejects it, realizing that it isn’t, in fact, everything that she wants.  Power without love turns out to be more hollow than she expected, and she gives up the most powerful position in her world on the off chance that she might someday reconnect with Anne.  I can’t think of anything more romantic, and it’s no wonder that Anne extends her hand to Max, both symbolically and physically.

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    LOL MOMENT

    Grandma Guthrie asks Max, “How well did you know my granddaughter?” and you can literally see the panic cross Max’s face as she imagines their more elicit activities being made known to Eleanor’s grandmother.

    WELL-FORMED THOUGHTS

    Israel Hands explicitly tells Silver that “the crown cannot be shared.”  Although Silver initially denies this, the episode itself seems to support this claim.  We’ve been led to believe that Flint and Silver are equal partners, but until this point, they’ve never really disagreed.  Now that their goals are diametrically opposed to each other, it seems that their partnership was just another iteration of Flint as captain and Silver as quartermaster.

    The deeper question is this:  does the show want us to believe that this is inevitable?  Can any partnership truly be equal?  To be sure, the most reliable relational characteristic of this show is that partners will betray one another.  There is, however, one glaring exception to this pattern:  Jack and Anne.  Every time one of them “betrays” the other (Anne sleeping with Max, Jack accepting a captaincy without Anne on the crew), they forgive each other, accept their new reality, and recommit themselves to the other.  But this kind of partnership is extremely rare, both in Black Sailsand in real life.

    FRAGMENTED THOUGHTS

    • Billy told Woodes Rogers that he would find Avery’s journals in Flint’s cellar.  How in the world did Billy know they were there?  Never mind, I can imagine that the MOMENT Billy had control of Flint’s house as a home base, he scoured through every single one of his possessions.
    • I do admire Rogers for making his ambivalent feelings for Billy very clear by almost shooting him in the head.
    • Silver asks Flint what lies beyond the war, afraid that, “What if the result of this war isn’t beyond the horror?  What if it is the horror itself?”  The answer Flint gives is one of the most beautiful lines in the show.

    “If we are to truly reach a moment where we might be finished with England, cleared away to make room for something else, there most certainly lies a dark moment between here and there.  A moment of terror where everything appears to be without hope.  I know this.  But I cannot believe that that is all there is.  I cannot believe we are so poorly made as that, incapable of surviving in the state to which we are born, grown so used to the yoke that there can be no progress without it.”

    • Flint is, at heart, an optimist.  This is why he is so compelling a protagonist.  Even when he’s doing horrible things, even when he loses his hope, we know that it’s there – a belief that something better than what currently exists can be attained.  God, I love him.
    • Flint has no aspirations to be king, making explicit his apparent lack of concern about Silver’s new title.  He sees Silver and Madi as leaders of the New Nassau, leaving us to understand that perhaps he is once more dreaming of walking inland to a place in which oars are mistaken for shovels…or dying in the process of getting them their power.
    • Which, okay.  Is Silver the best of them?  Really?  I’ve never really been a huge Silver stan, so…am I missing something?  The Madi love I entirely agree with (“She’s as wise as her father, she’s as strong as her mother”), but this statement about Silver seems hyperbolic.

    “Why are you doing this?  Talking about us like it’s a thing?  A future?  I don’t know who broke it first, but it broke.  And there ain’t no putting it back together again.”

    • I love Anne’s honesty, and later we learn that Max does too!
    • “The defense of civilization is not your responsibility, sir!” shouts government lackey, which made me realize that Woodes Rogers and Flint are fighting a war of ideals, while people like this dude and Max are all, “Okay, but what about making money and just staying alive?”
    • I love Flint’s eye twitches as he evaluates Billy’s survival and what this means for him.
    • By openly defying Flint’s orders, Silver is testing whether or not Flint actually trusts Silver the way Silver has trusted Flint.  Based upon Flint’s infinitesimal head shake and body scan of disgust, things don’t look good.  Kudos to Silver, I guess, for really believing that Flint will eventually come to see his side of things because of their partnership and friendship.
    • The minor characters are getting some extra time!  We’ve got Mrs. Mapleton, Mrs. Hudson, Ben Gunn, Mr. DeGroot, Idelle, and even a mention of Charlotte!
    • Anne being unable to slice bread on her own is such a perfect scene of a powerful person made weak.

    “Despite the world reminding her every day of her life that she’s undeserving of being given anything by it, that she was unworthy of what little she’d managed to take from it – despite all that, she never believed a word of it.  That woman has been fighting the whole goddamn world since the day she was born.  She’s a breath away from winning that fight.  For whatever reason, she wants to share the spoils with you, and you’d walk away.”

    • Idelle puts her hatred of Anne away because of her love of Max.
    • Grandma Guthrie and Max have the same conversation James and Thomas once did about civilization needing the pirates.
    • Max has officially replaced Eleanor, even if this is “the wrong river, the wrong woman.”  She has everything Eleanor fought for.  How lovely that later, Max doesn’t boast of this to Anne, but admits that Eleanor tried to teach her one final lesson – that all the power in the world isn’t worth anything if there is no love.
    • Grandma Guthrie lays out the profound limitations of a woman’s power in this world, that even the most intelligent woman has to hide herself behind a man in order to wield it.  But being reminded of all “the humiliations and the sacrifices and the defeats and the illusions maintained at so great a cost to your sense of self” inspires Max to make a bold decision – she says no, because she doesn’t want to risk being unable to be with Anne.

    “You are the bravest person I have ever known.  The truest person I have ever known.  And I betrayed you, and it sickens me.  I am so sorry for working so hard to protect the wrong things, for failing to see that there is nothing important that does not include you.”

    • Now THAT is an apology.  Every episode makes me like Max more and more!
    • When Anne extends her brutalized hand toward Max, she is offering her the most vulnerable part of herself.  Reminds me of season 2, when she bares her scarred back to both Max and Jack when asking them to join in a new relationship with her.  She leads with vulnerability, which is amazing for such a taciturn, gruff woman.
    • TREASURE ISLAND!!  It’s getting piratey up in here!
    • I love that Silver tells Israel Hands that there is no hidden message about not killing Flint – he learned his lesson from season 2 when he accidentally ordered his fellow plotters to murder someone.
    • And Israel Hands obeys, even saving Flint and Dooley when they steal the cache, because he wants Silver to see Flint for what he is.  What he is is a mastermind, WHY DOES ANYONE STILL QUESTION HIM?  He’s made it clear that he will save both the cache and Madi, and why does Silver feels this is so unlikely?  C’mon, keep up your blind trust!
    • I’ll give Silver this, though.  He’s brave to offer himself to Woodes Rogers in order to protect Madi.  Even if I hate that his admission that he’s sent men to kill Flint must make Billy feel so smug.
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    Flint the storyteller is back, and I’m shrieking with delight at my laptop again!

    Not done reliving the episode?  Listen to Daphne and Liz’s podcast at Fathoms Deep!

  • I’ll Be the One by Lyla Lee

    I’ll Be the One by Lyla Lee

    Genre | YA Contemporary Fiction
    Page #s | 328
    Publishing Date | June 2020

    The world of K-Pop has never met a star like this. Debut author Lyla Lee delivers a deliciously fun, thoughtful rom-com celebrating confidence and body positivity—perfect for fans of Jenny Han and Julie Murphy.

    Skye Shin has heard it all. Fat girls shouldn’t dance. Wear bright colors. Shouldn’t call attention to themselves. But Skye dreams of joining the glittering world of K-Pop, and to do that, she’s about to break all the rules that society, the media, and even her own mother, have set for girls like her.

    She’ll challenge thousands of other performers in an internationally televised competition looking for the next K-pop star, and she’ll do it better than anyone else.

    When Skye nails her audition, she’s immediately swept into a whirlwind of countless practices, shocking performances, and the drama that comes with reality TV. What she doesn’t count on are the highly fat-phobic beauty standards of the Korean pop entertainment industry, her sudden media fame and scrutiny, or the sparks that soon fly with her fellow competitor, Henry Cho.

    But Skye has her sights on becoming the world’s first plus-sized K-pop star, and that means winning the competition—without losing herself.

    Goodreads

    I am not (yet) into K-Pop, but I am very much into empowered teens chasing their dreams (and their crushes) while crushing their haters. I’ll Be the One is a super cute book about challenging fatphobia in Korean American culture, family support, and some good ol’ fashioned YA romance.

    Skye is one of my favorite protagonists. She is the exact opposite of me, since she uses people’s verbal and nonverbal judgements as fuel for her own awesomeness. She’s a size 16 in a culture that thinks size 2 is too big, but she’s an amazing dancer and singer, so she auditions for a TV idol competition. The female judge constantly gives her a hard time about her weight (it feels like a meaningful acknowledgement of how women often police ourselves to a higher standard), but Skye continues to outperform her contestants and stands up for herself on national television in some really triumphal fist-to-the-sky moments.

    Along the way, Skye becomes friends with a lesbian couple, cutely acknowledges her bisexuality because she was checking one of them out, and then falls in love with Instagram star Henry Cho. You know how YA romances are so often ridiculous, but some of them are unbelievable in just the right way? This is one of the good ones! I loved watching them become friends, flirt, and evolve into something more. Bonus points for a double-bisexual couple!

    This is a purely fun, delightful, inspiring book, and I hope everyone reads it!

    Who Would I Recommend This Book To?

    I’ll Be the One is the perfect weekend read for when you want to tear through a story with a grin on your face.

    Rating: 4 out of 5.

    Check out our Queer Lil Library for more book recommendations and reviews!

  • 7 Queer Reads for Little Beans

    7 Queer Reads for Little Beans

    Yes, little kids need LGBTQIA+ books. From affirming their family lives to providing information for their inquiring minds, these picture and chapter books are age-appropriate and perfect for every bookshelf. 


    Love is Love by Michael Genhart

    Dealing with bullying and homophobia, we see the story from a little boy’s point of view. He loves wearing his rainbow shirt and supporting his two dads, but when children at school tease him for his shirt, his sadness radiates off the page. Talk about a heart-breaker. And as the story goes on, we see his family, their love, and the love shared between families and children with a very important, very simple message: love is love, and that is universal and beautiful.

    Julian Is A Mermaid by Jessica Love

    A 2019 Stonewall Book Award winner! An absolutely charming picture book about a little boy who lives with his abuela and has an obsession with mermaids. It’s all he thinks and dreams about. So when he sees three women on the subway dressed as mermaids, he goes home and wraps a curtain around his waist. When his grandmother sees his ensemble, she takes him to a festival where people of all kinds and shapes are dressed in fabulous, outrageous costumes. The illustrations are gorgeous, the message so very sweet, and the honesty of it makes this book a keeper.

    My Rainbow by DeShana Neal and Trinity Neal

    Oh my heart for this book, and it’s a true story! Trinity is an autistic, transgender Black girl and she really wants long hair. DeShana, her mother, helps her by creating a fabulous, colorful wig and giving her love and reassurance. It is an incredibly endearing, heartwarming picture book featuring the struggles and reality of helping a child dealing with identity and gender expression.

    This Is Our Rainbow by Katherine Locke and Nicole Melleby

    The only book like this for older elementary and middle grade kids! It’s a delightful anthology of stories about different ways LGBTQIA+ kids can express themselves, and the realities that come along with being part of a marginialized group. From fantasy and sci-fi to contemporary, these stories are joyous and perfect for readers who want to understand themselves better, or understand someone else in their lives.

    Too Bright To See by Kyle Lukoff

    It’s a ghost story, a book about grief and understanding, and honestly just a beautiful story. Bug is a transgender boy and he lives in a haunted house, which feels more claustrophobic and less joyful now that his Uncle Roderick, who was gay, has passed away. When an unamed ghost starts following him around, Bug turns to find comfort in his friend Moira, who is detached and going through her own difficulties as the start of middle school looms over them. Rightfully so, the book is a National Book Award finalist.

    How To Become A Planet by Nicole Melleby

    I can’t resist this book – and that cover! This is a very gentle coming-of-age story about Pluto, who loves astronomy but is reeling from her recent diagnosis with anxiety and depression. Her family isn’t taking the news well, either, and her single mother worries, but still expects an awful lot from her daughter. When Pluto meets Fallon, a girl questioning her identity, they form an immediate, special bond. It’s a valuable book for a number of reasons, but the setting and characters truly shine with gentle authenticity and relatability.

    Our Subway Baby by Peter Mercurio

    “Some babies are born into their families. Some are adopted. This is the story of how one baby found his family in the New York City subway.” Possibly my favorite book on this list, and that was a tough call to make! Based on the true story of when Peter’s husband Danny discovered an abandoned baby on the subway station in New York while on his way home from work. Together they work to adopt the little boy, who they name Kevin, and give this child a loving home. The soft illustrations from Leo Espinosa sing on every page, and create a beautiful backdrop for a dear story that hit me right in the heart.


    Halli Starling (she/her) writes fantasy worlds, vampires, and romance, focusing on stories with deep emotional investment. And the occasional bloody bit of violence.

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  • Sports Ball 2021 Week 8 Review

    Sports Ball 2021 Week 8 Review

    A big thank you to our contributors from last week! The look inside the mind of a beard was fantastic: the second guessing, the self doubt and crushing defeat all backed up with statistical analysis! Although I am surprised there was no link to a 45 minute video on the saddest ever punt or something. And the Doves did us all proud. You may not know anything about football and still perhaps can’t name three players on your team, but you certainly can write a blog post (and break the soul of a manatee).

    Last Week’s Games

    Sad Fluid Squalor Seacows vs Fire Pandas

    The Fire Pandas were all fired up for this local derby (it’s a British term for when two teams from the same city play each other, which warrants an excessive police presence to keep the opposing fans from fighting each other over a game that is otherwise meaningless)! Unlike the streets of British cities, however, the Mc-Adams household was not strewn with burning garbage after the points were tallied. Surrounded by liquid squalor, the Manatees try to remember what it was like to win a game instead of booping their snoot against the glass of disappointment.

    While the Fire Pandas picked up an easy win, there is some cause for concern. A misfiring Patrick Mahomes in the line up and a benched Tyler Lockett made the Fire Pandas beatable…just not by the Manatees.

    Scapecow of the week: It was a close one this week. Emanuel Sanders delivered a big ol’ 0, but no, this week The Cincinnati Defense wins the infamous title by scoring 1 point against the freaking Jets!

    Bad News Bears vs Purple Moose

    Johnathan was rather active in the chat on Monday night when this one was decided. After all, he does have a winning streak to defend, and the Purple Moose gave the bears a run for their money. If this were a nature show narrated by David Attenborough (or who ever the Canadian equivalent is), we would see a bear chasing down a tired moose…a slippery rock, a misplaced hoof, a stumble and a blood stained bear muzzle! “Misfortune for the moose means this bear won’t be going hungry, he has gorged himself for the coming winter and will soon go into hibernation.”

    Misplaced hoof, thy name is Travis Kelce, who has been so reliable for so long, outscored by Harrison Butker and his very well placed kicking paw.

    the replacements vs Eurasian Collared Doves

    In an otherwise low scoring week for the league in general, this battle of relative titans contained the two highest scores of the week. A real contest then! Well no, it was another drastic over-compensation from the replacements after losing last week, racking up 160 points and leaving nothing on the bench. Way to stay at .500 Amy. Lull them with a false sense of security one week and then Hulk Smash the next!

    The Doves remembered to start Koo and managed to peck up 126 points of bread crusts and other assorted garbage. Puff chested they raised their beak to the sky, but were cut off by a conversed foot launching them into the losing column and loosing an undignified squawk.

    Beards ‘R Us vs Battling Finger Puppets

    The Beards had some solid performances at RB 1&2 and WR 1&2, like a set of fine mutton chops that highlighted the underperforming, clean shaven chin of QB Kirk Cousins. Thankfully, the answer to last week’s preview question was ‘really itchy’. The beards win this one by a whisker to go 2-6. 

    More little buttons or whatever might be needed to inspire Nick Chubb and James Robinson next week, so I expect you can find Carrie at Michael’s this week stocking up, or else out back of the barber shop picking up more stuffing…

    Real Slim Brady vs Team Sorto

    Another team who picked up a much needed win was Team Sorto in another home town show down with Real Slim Brady. Josh Allen came through with a big game for Adriana, right when she needed it the most! 

    Real Slim Brady had some weapons in their line up with Ekler and Godwin combined for 53.4 points. Unfortunately the rest of the team could only manage another 56.5 combined. Better weeks ahead for Real Slim Brady with the return of Christian McCaffrey imminent.

    Standings After Week 8

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    Bad News Bears claim sole possession of first with Real Slim Brady just behind.

    Finger Puppets and Fire Pandas are battling it out for third; the Moose have dropped back to 500 with the replacements who are poised to make the playoffs.

    Eurasian Collared Doves are trying to get off the ground at 3-5.

    3 teams are tied for last…I mean, making the rest of you look good…  at 2-6.

    The Chart (of Lies)

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    Lies Lies Lies all the way down. Viva la revolución!

    Preview of This Week’s Games

    Purple Moose vs Seacows

    Tom Brady, the only viable Seacow, is on Bye this week, so the Purple Moose are probably feeling pretty good about this match up. But wait, in a show of sea mammal patriotism the Seacows have picked up Tua of the Dolphins! Rise, you creatures of the ocean! 

    Bad News Bears vs the replacements

    In the wax and wane cycle that is the replacements week by week performance, this week should be another win for the Bad News Bears. Will this be the week Amy bucks the trend? Or will the Bears continue to gorge themselves on wins? 

    Team Sorto vs Fire Pandas

    Both teams are on the rise with QB’s who have struggled at times this season. The Fire Pandas might have more wins, but Team Sorto has it all to play for! This match up between secretly competitive but very polite people will be one to watch this week.

    Real Slim Brady vs Beards

    He’s back! CMC has returned, but for how long? The Beards hope less than 5 minutes, Real Slim Brady hopes forever, and we will know by 11 am on Sunday who gets their wish. Zooming out to the teams as a whole, the projection has this one for Real Slim Brady by 14 points. Will the Beards keep Kirk Cousins in the line up and rely on their mutton chops once more?

    Battling finger puppets vs Eurasian collared Doves

    A tough bye week for the ECD with both regular QB’s sidelined. The Battling finger puppets setting up for victory with their Baltimore QB/WR stack, look out doves, those aren’t crumbs your pecking at, they are indigestible little buttons!

  • Adventure Queers:  Meet Alina Pete!

    Adventure Queers: Meet Alina Pete!

    I’m Alina Pete (they/them). I’m nehiyaw (Cree), from Little Pine First Nations in Saskatchewan, though I currently live on unceded Kwantlen land in Surrey, BC. You can check out my portfolio at alina-pete.com, my webcomic at weregeek.com, my Instagram at @alinapete_art, and my twitter is @alinapete.

    Alina, you currently play an orc with fabulous pink hair in the Twitch stream Trash Heroes. When did you begin playing D&D and what is it about the game that keeps you playing?

    I started playing D&D twice, actually. Once, when I was a teenager, I tried playing with a group of guys in their mom’s basement and it was AWFUL. Every stereotype you can think of about male gamers picking on a femme-gamer who was new to the hobby… It turned me off of trying tabletop gaming again for years, though I continued with my first roleplaying method – MUSHes and forum-based RP sites. These were “safe”, since they had the advantage of being something I could do in my own home, and were largely femme-centric spaces.

    It wasn’t until university that I got the nerve to try tabletop gaming again. I saw posters up for a campus club called “The Gamer’s Club”, and they had a meeting that night. I went, and was invited to try a LARP that weekend. I tried it and LOVED it, and it was only after I’d been LARPing for several months that I tried out a tabletop game – Shadowrun, not D&D! It was several more years of TTRPGs and LARPing before I gave D&D another try. Now, I run my own 5e campaign and play in two regular stream games – Trash Heroes (twitch.tv/weregeekcomics), which you’ve mentioned, and Something Wicked (twitch.tv/something5e). So I came around on it eventually!

    As a queer person, have roleplaying games helped you explore or express your queer identity?

    OMG have they ever!! I’m bi/pan, and though I’ve played a few straight characters over the years, they were mostly guys. I also started experimenting with genderqueer characters even before I was really aware what my vague feelings of gender dysphoria meant. In my teens, I played a lot of male characters (mostly because, as I’ve mentioned, I was in a lot of femme-centric RP spaces and they needed more guys…), but maleness never really “fit”. I also played several genderfluid or non-binary LARP characters. One was a Beast in a Changeling: The Lost game who changed personality, gender, and species every season – for example, she was a deer in the spring, a genderfluid bird in the summer, and a male wolf in the winter. There was also Valentine, another Changeling character who was non-binary before they were abducted by the Red Queen of Wonderland and magicked so that whatever they wore would turn into dresses and other feminine clothing items. 

    Looking back, that maybe should have clued me into the fact that I wasn’t exactly cis… 

    Although changes have been made, D&D hasn’t always had the best track record of being an inclusive space for non-cishet players. How do you think safe spaces can be created, both individually and systemically?

    I think that making safe spaces at the table shouldn’t just be encouraged during TTRPGs – it’s a must. You need to feel safe with everyone at the table, because some of the things that you explore through your characters are really personal or intimate. The only way to have that kind of comfort at the table is to discuss it from day one, before you even start making your characters, and to acknowledge the responsibility you each have to be kind and considerate to one another.

    The book Your Best Game Ever has a great section on responsibility – of players to each other, of players to the DM, and the DMs responsibility to everyone at the table. It’s really great, and a much healthier place than the adversarial relationship between players and DMs that is often the norm in old-school D&D. Safety tools like the ok-check-in system and others that have been developed for LARPs are also great tools to bring to your gaming table!

    On a systemic basis, change needs to come from gamers being LOUD and refusing to stand for games that aren’t inclusive. Gamers sharing their stories of bad experiences with one another means that a) you know you’re not alone if you’ve had a bad experience with gaming and that it can get better and b) so that there’s more awareness in the industry of how some things that may seem innocuous, like gendered rules/language, can exclude players. We also need to push for more diversity on writing teams, not just as consultants!

    You created the online comic Weregeek for over 14 years. What did you learn about yourself as an artist through that project?

    Phew, what DIDN’T I learn during that time? I was a wee baby, fresh out of animation school, when I started Weregeek. I started the comic mostly as a way to force me to keep practicing my art until I got an animation job, but it quickly turned into so much more than art practice. I learned about how to structure a joke, how to do backgrounds, how to write interesting dialogue and characters… I really don’t think I’d be the artist OR writer I am today without Weregeek.

    The fifth edition of Cautionary Fables and Fairytales called The Woman in the Woods and Other North American Stories has raised over $300,000 on Kickstarter. You worked as an editor for this graphic novel anthology of North American fables. How do you think your Cree identity affects your artwork and/or projects?

    I think it’d be impossible for it to NOT influence my projects! Even in Weregeek, the character Abbie has a lot of my worldview – she’s mixed race and from a background similar to mine, and allowed me to show how being from a marginalized group in gaming can give you a radically different viewpoint from the folks you share a table with.

    Recently, though, I’ve been doing stories where I’ve been asked to explore my identity in a really thoughtful and deliberate way. For the anthology Moonshot, Vol.2, I was asked to tell a traditional Cree story set in modern times. In this story, I chose to take a story from the Qu’Appelle Valley, where I spent summers growing up, about how voices from the lake sometimes call out to people to try and lure them beneath the dark waters. I then reinterpreted it through the lens of the MMIWG crisis. In this story, a man who has left the reserve to work in the oil and gas fields comes back home when his girlfriend goes missing, only to hear her calling out to him from the lake. Should he listen? Should he not? I think that comics can make really heavy topics like this a little more approachable and yet more REAL for people who don’t necessarily know how to engage with numbers and statistics in a newspaper article. 

    Other than D&D or comics, what nerdy interests are you most excited about right now?

    God, SO many things… I think the biggest one though is costuming. I’m really interested in costumes, and there’s such amazing stuff coming from the cosplay and furry communities right now. LED-everything, monster masks airbrushed so they look frighteningly real, 3d printed masks with moving parts or glowing eyes all run via Raspberry PI, stilts, giant wings that actually move! I really love that kind of merging of art and technology, and I’ve definitely been known to leap out from behind my booth at a convention to go and talk to a cosplayer about how they made a particular piece or what kind of paint/finish they used!

    Do you have any recommendations of queer nerdy content that you would like people to know about?

    SO much. It might be easiest to break it into categories.

    • Animation: She-Ra is the obvious answer and I still HIGHLY recommend it, but I’ve got to shout out Kipo and the Age of Wonderbeasts for a) being a really fun show and b) having the first and cutest meet-cute between two guys I’ve seen on a non-anime animated series.
    • Sci fi: Becky Chamber’s Wayfarers series is a must-read, but I especially love the first book. No spoilers, but Sissix is the best. (Dr. Chef is ALSO the best. And Kizzy. And all of them really.)
    • Fantasy: Anything by Aliette de Bodard, but especially In The Vanisher’s Palace, which is a queer retelling of Beauty and the Beast in a really amazing setting grounded in Vietnamese folklore.
    • Webcomic: There’s a really cute comic on Webtoons called Blades of Furry. The only way I can describe it is if you mashed up Beastars and Yuri on Ice. I love it!

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  • Black Sails Season 4 Episode 7 Review – XXXV

    Black Sails Season 4 Episode 7 Review – XXXV

    Flint urges caution on an enraged Silver.  Max leads Rackham and Bonny up river.  Billy finds a survivor.  Rogers learns the truth.

    (Summary provided by starz.com)


    BEST FLINT MOMENT

    When Silver finds out Madi is alive and emotionally believes that he can give up the cache for her without undoing the revolution, Flint steps in and confidently claims that they will get everything that they want.  And like, I GET why Silver has trust issues where Flint is concerned, but I trust him 100%!!

    TODAY’S RUNNER UP

    Jack!  He is so good in this episode!  He’s caring and tender with Anne, proud and then disappointed about the reality of the pirate legacy he has so long pursued, respectful of Grandma Guthrie, and humble and smart enough to invite Max back into the game.  He really shines when paired with women, huh?

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    LOL MOMENT

    Every time Jack tries to fill in awkward silences and Grandma Guthrie calmly puts him in his place is an utter joy to watch.

    WELL-FORMED THOUGHTS

    We’ve made an emotional turn in the show.  Although it has always included both of these themes, we seem to be distancing ourselves from the cycle of violence (although it is explicitly referenced in this episode) and instead, my attention is focusing on the theme of Short Term vs. Long Term planning.

    This is seen most easily in two scenes, one between the Maroon Queen and Julius, and later it is mirrored in a conversation between Madi and Woodes Rogers.  In the first, both the Queen and Julius have security as their goal.  But whereas Julius is satisfied with months or years, the Queen is willing to sacrifice personal happiness if it ensures long term security for her people and their descendants.  Similarly, Woodes Rogers offers freedom to the current escaped slaves if Madi promises that any future refugees to their island are returned “to the law.”  She refuses this offer, knowing it will likely lead to her death, because she will not accept short term freedom at the expense of broader, long term freedom.

    It is fitting then, that with the philosophical divide thus established, our leading men are beginning to have the same conversation.  Silver is willing to give up the cache to save Madi, whereas Flint admits he is willing to give up her life to pursue a greater victory.  As the episode ends, we see they have created an uneasy and untruthful compromise, but where it will go from here remains to be seen.

    FRAGMENTED THOUGHTS

    • For an episode all about grief, it is a refreshingly light episode after six hours of dark material.
    • The scene between Silver and the Queen is so lovely.  They are both grieving Madi, and her mother knows she can trust this boy who claimed to love her because he describes her as, “curious and strong, not made to be hidden away from the world.”
    • Flint is so tender with Silver!  “How is she?”  “Breathing.”  “How are you?”  It is continually astounding to realize that the rage that drove Flint through the first two seasons and especially the third has vanished.  He has a purpose now, has allies, and this has freed him to care for and trust the people around him.
    • When Julius balks at the idea of their Caribbean revolution expanding to include all of the New World, Silver is the one to go Bad Cop.  This is the exact opposite of the Quartermaster we used to know who could make Flint’s crazy plans palatable to the crew by selling it with a smile.
    • Part of me is annoyed that the only female pirate is the one who can’t seem to recover from her wounds, but it also gives us Jack the Nursemaid, so I can’t be mad for long.
    • Anne is pissed that Max wouldn’t apologize, but also admires her for not pretending.

    “You have plenty of time to murder her another day, but right now you need to rest.”

    • Woodes Rogers is interrupted in blaming Mrs. Hudson for Eleanor’s decision by realizing that Eleanor was pregnant.  I would be sad for him, but he remains an asshole.
    • Jack mimicking Max’s French accent is A+ delightful.
    • Featherstone claims that Max hasn’t crossed anyone who didn’t cross her first.  Is this true?  Did Jack and Anne cross her?  Can someone rewatch the whole series real quick and validate this statement?

    The Queen:  I once thought like you.  That because I had reason to mistrust the pirates, that it necessarily followed that I must mistrust them.  But it is not so.  For there is also reason to see common interest with them.  I have fought alongside these men.
    Julius:  I have fought alongside these men, but I did it so that I might find security.  What they are now arguing for does not sound like security to me.  There is no lasting security to be had here.
    Q:  We’ll fight to change that.
    J:  Nothing is lasting.  But months, years, that is meaningful, and it can be had here.  …
    Q:  No one has ever been this close, this near a chance to change the world.
    J:  No one changes the world.  Not like this.  Not all at once.

    • I love this conversation between the Queen and Julius! They both make good points, but I have always been, and still remain, Team Long Term Planning.  And the Queen is sounding quite a bit like Flint at the end there, huh?
    • Silver is emotionally where Flint was last season, and it’s beautiful to see their roles reversed.  Flint is such a good partner to Silver, laying out their past and their present, warning him that his emotions will cloud his judgment (is he remembering a certain storm?) but that Flint will be there beside him, guiding him.  And when Silver regrets his harsh words to Julian, Flint calmly reassures him that it’s alright.  There’s obviously going to be a significant turn in their relationship by episode’s end, but this moment is really beautiful.
    • Flint says multiple times, “Trust me.”  Is it crazy that I do?  He’s ambitious, determined, and unafraid to change allies at the drop of a hat.  And yet, if you believe in the same thing that he does, he is hard to resist trusting.
    • Jack enjoys the notoriety of being identified as a pirate in Philadelphia by a wide-eyed teenager, especially when his name is listed right after Edward Teach.  But his mood quickly sours when he realizes the world wants to sensationalize their stories rather than seeing them as human beings.

    “Charles Vane was my closest friend in the world.  He was the bravest man I ever knew.  Not without fear, just unwilling to let it diminish him.  And loyal to a fault.  And in a world where honesty is so regularly and casually disregarded–”
    “I heard he cut off a man’s head and left it as a marker in the sand to anyone who would cross him.”
    “It was a little more complicated than that.”
    “I heard he sometimes butchered his enemies for amusement, made stew of their flesh.  He was truly an animal.”
    “Stew?  For what possible–I beg your pardon, but do you believe this?”
    “I read it in a newspaper.”
    “Charles Vane was a good man.  What I told you was the truth.  Put down the newspapers and read a book.”

    • This is the whole points of Black Sails, adding layers of depth to the hype of a Pirate Show.
    • Grandpa Guthrie is dismissive of Jack’s plan, BUT GRANDMA GUTHRIE.  She and Jack immediately bond because they both know what it’s like to be underestimated and to use that to their advantages.
    • Eleanor fought to create space for her family, but Woodes Rogers destroyed it because he didn’t trust her.  Even if it feels a little out of place for this show, I’m glad Eleanor’s corpse is supernaturally judging him and crying because of him.  It is Very Effective, and he deserves it.
    • Billy is alive and a defector.  It made me think of Baby Billy who was tortured by the British and swore to fight against them as a result.  I suppose it must be very painful that his own allies wound up doing the very same thing to him.
    • Jack bought a fancy new coat while in Philadelphia.
    • Although Jack shows a lot of respect for Max by bringing her to meet Grandma Guthrie, GG demands more when interrupting his introduction with, “Does she speak?”  I cannot believe that this television show about pirates thought, “You know what we should do now that we only have four episodes left?  Let’s introduce another awesome female character!”
    • I have thoughts about the Cat Cycle at the end under spoiler warnings.

    Max:  In Nassau, slaves have seen too many of their own find freedom amongst the crews.  It costs less to pay wages than to replace defectors, or worse yet, to pay guards to watch my door as I sleep.
    Grandma Guthrie:  That isn’t the only reason, though, is it?
    Max:  No, it is not.  In my life, I have been bought and sold.  And as I would be no slave again, nor would I be a master.

    • Max shows both logic and emotion in her decision to pay former slaves wages.  She’s also learning that there is value in vulnerability, and I like her more than ever before.  (Relearning?  It’s possible that she stomped down her vulnerability after asking Eleanor to flee with her in the series beginning and being refused.)
    • We learned earlier in the episode that the cache no longer matters to Spain, yet Rogers demands its return in order for Madi’s release.  Why?  Out of spite?  Oh wait, he super needs the money.  It’s personal now.
    • Silver is blinded by his emotion, but the Queen can see through hers. Both she, Flint, and Madi agree that one life, however beloved, is not worth forfeiting the cache and their revolution, but Silver…he just wants her back.  Hmm.
    • Woodes Rogers goes to Madi for comfort, which is gross.  He tries to convince her to sign the agreement by being monstrous, which is ineffective.  Dude is flailing.

    “Eleanor died fighting.  As will I.”

    • YEESSSSS, Madi!!
    • Jack and Anne’s separation is so sweet.  In exchange for her alliance, Grandma Guthrie has demanded that Jack kill Flint.  When Anne asks how he’ll do it, he lays out a litany of physical obstacles.  But she presses him, asking, “How could you be someone who would do that?”  Anne has been the secret heart of this show!  And this is so sweet, but Jack answers her concerns with the equally sweet, “I do it for us.  That’s how it started.  That’s how it’s going to end.”  I LOVE THEM.
    • Silver says, “He’s confident in his plan, as am I.”  He’s got a backup, because of course he does, and what’s going to happen next???
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    We had almost seven episodes of these two being an unstoppable and surprisingly caring partnership.  Too short!!

    FINALE SPOILER WARNING

    • While I love the connection that the Cat Cycle story creates between Grandma Guthrie and Max, it strikes me as odd that their solution to the cycle of violence is…one final act of violence.  And if we fast forward to the finale, it seems to be that the dual ending engages with this problem.  The easiest solution to stopping everything is undoubtedly to kill Flint, and that is one way to read what happens.  But what if someone were to catch the cat and send it somewhere else where love would heal the wound it’s trying to heal via violence?  That’s the other way to read the finale, and I like that we are offered one final philosophical question:  Which value do we want to believe in most?  Ending the cycle of violence with violence or with love?

    Not done reliving the episode?  Listen to Daphne and Liz’s podcast at Fathoms Deep!

  • ¡Hola Papi!: How to Come Out in a Walmart Parking Lot and Other Life Lessons by John Paul Brammer

    ¡Hola Papi!: How to Come Out in a Walmart Parking Lot and Other Life Lessons by John Paul Brammer

    Genre | Memoir
    Page #s | 224
    Publishing Date | June 2021

    From popular LGBTQ advice columnist and writer John Paul Brammer comes a hilarious, heartwarming memoir-in-essays chronicling his journey growing up as a queer, mixed-race kid in America’s heartland to becoming the “Chicano Carrie Bradshaw” of his generation.

    The first time someone called John Paul (JP) Brammer “Papi” was on the popular gay hookup app Grindr. At first, it was flattering; JP took this as white-guy speak for “hey, handsome.” Who doesn’t want to be called handsome? But then it happened again and again…and again, leaving JP wondering: Who the hell is Papi?

    What started as a racialized moniker given to him on a hookup app soon became the inspiration for his now wildly popular advice column “¡Hola Papi!,” launching his career as the Cheryl Strayed for young queer people everywhere—and some straight people too. JP had his doubts at first—what advice could he really offer while he himself stumbled through his early 20s? Sometimes the best advice to dole outcomes from looking within, which is what JP has done in his column and book—and readers have flocked to him for honest, heartfelt wisdom, and of course, a few laughs.

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    Although I’ve followed Brammer on Twitter for years, I have to admit that I’ve never read the advice column that inspired this book! I will be rectifying this oversight, since Brammer is an incredible author who combines personal anecdotes with universal guidance with ease.

    This book is short and sweet, marching through significant portions of his life in chapters prefaced by a hypothetical advice question. It’s lovely to think of this book as a love letter to his past selves, helping him work through the doubts and concerns that plagued him.

    I particularly loved the chapter about spending his adolescence dating a girl. Despite identifying as a gay man, he has a lot of fondness for that relationship, because our interactions are far more nuanced and meaningful than simply addressing (or not addressing) sexual gratification. For all the queers coming out later in life, it’s a nice lesson in appreciating our pasts for what they gave us, rather than focusing on what was denied to us.

    Far less relatable, but equally great, was his chapter on reconciling his Hispanic identity with his privilege and a family that tried to Americanize as quickly as possible. Watching him grow under the tutelage and teasing of older Hispanic coworkers was adorable, and I liked how he rewrote his history to show the drive and determination that resulted in becoming Americanized actually being the most Hispanic quality possible.

    This is a book all about treating ourselves gently, sharing stories with grace and with an eye toward growth and wholeness. Brammer is a talented writer, and though I’m not eager to read his porn descriptions (a funny/depressing chapter about capitalism and the hustle!), I am excited to read his work going forward.

    Who Would I Recommend This Book To?

    ¡Hola Papi! is the book for memoir enthusiasts who want a hits-the-highlights reel.

    Rating: 4 out of 5.

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